oh, the simplest thing's in life that makes us thankful :)

as i was walking to the bank today afternoon, i saw a group of kindergarten children.

they were on a field trip to the great unknown, a.k.a the street opposite the kindergarten.

the group saw a big truck driving past, and as it drove past, a kid said "bye bye!" to the truck, and the rest followed, for no reason.

after that, at the car-park behind my house, i saw a flock of pigeons.

there was a big pigeon and a small pigeon. like a mum and her child.

as the "child" walked, the "mum" walked behind him, mimicking it's every step and also the bobbing of the head.

it was soooo hilarious.

ah, the little thing's in life. i am so grateful for them.

do me a favor, smell the roses for me as you walk through your neighborhood.

you'll be amazed at what you've been missing in your hectic everyday life.

Not Meant To Be?

Am i not meant to be with the one I think I love?
Although i do not really know her that well, I know her just well enough to know her likes, her dislikes,her dreams, her ambitions.
However, although my dreams are similar to hers, the dreams placed closer to her heart is the ones furthest away from mine, even though they are still my dreams.
Even though we are not really that different, we aren't similar too.
Her dreams are to live in places like ski resorts, cottage in other countries, travel around the world, and much more.
i admit, i too share her dreams and ambitions, however, the dreams closer to my heart is to bring the poor, the ill, the sorrowed, the burdened to acknowledge Jesus Christ as their lord and saviour, and also help them to get along in life, providing daily necessities and also education to the children among them.
I would however much much more prefer to help orphans along in life, but i'll see where God leads me.
I aim to share God's love with them and let them know that indeed, there are people caring about and for you in this world and more importantly, a loving Abba Father, our El Shaddai.
I know that i too cannot serve two masters, as luke 16:13 says "No servant can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money.". Indeed this is so very true. We should store our treasures in heaven, for where the treasure is, your heart will be also.
Therefore, if i were to chose, i would have to either chose the one i love, or to follow God.
The only way for it to be otherwise, is that she gives up all her wealth and dreams, and we get married and live our lives for God.
I really hope that in the future, me and the one i love will be doing full time mission work together, to reap the harvest for God!

Matthew 5:3-10
3"Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
4Blessed are those who mourn,
for they will be comforted.
5Blessed are the meek,
for they will inherit the earth.
6Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for they will be filled.
7Blessed are the merciful,
for they will be shown mercy.
8Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they will see God.
9Blessed are the peacemakers,
for they will be called sons of God.
10Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Albertine - Brooke Fraser

I am sitting still
I think of Angelique
her mothers voice over me
And the bullets in the wall where it fell silent
And on a thousandth hill, I think of albertine
there in her eyes what i dont see with my own
rwanda

[CHORUS]
now that i have seen, I am responsible
Faith without deeds is dead
now that i have held you in my own arms, I cannot let go till you are

I am on a plane across a distant sea
But i carry you in me
and the dust on, the dust on, the dust on, thee dust on, the dust on my feet
Rwanda

[CHORUS]

[BRIGDE]
I will tel the world, I will tell them where i've been
I will keep my word
I will tell them albertine

[CHORUS]

I am on a stage, a thouand eyes on me
I will tell them, Albertine
I will tell them, Albertine



now that i have seen, I am responsible
Faith without deeds is dead

this is so very true.

i have decided. that instead of using all of my money that i am saving on myself,
i shall instead have a ratio of 2:1. the 2 will be money that i am saving for mission trips,
while the 1 will be the money for my trips around the world, my camera, and stuff.
now for a song :)

You - Switchfoot

There's always something
In the way
There's always something
Getting through
But it's not me
it's You

Sometime's ignorance
Rings true
But hope is not in
What I know
Not in me
It's in You

It's all I know

And I find peace
When I'm confused
I find hope when
I'm let down
Not in me
But in You

I hope to lose myself
For good
I hope to find it in the end
Not in me
It's You
It's all I know

i dare you to move

Welcome to the planet  Welcome to existence  Everyone's here  Everyone's here  Everybody's watching you now  Everybody waits for you now  What happens next?  What happens next?   I dare you to move  I dare you to move  I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor  I dare you to move  I dare you to move  Like today never happened  Today never happened before   Welcome to the fallout  Welcome to resistance  The tension is here  The tension is here  Between who you are and who you could be  Between how it is and how it should be   I dare you to move  I dare you to move  I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor  I dare you to move  I dare you to move  Like today never happened  Today never happened   Maybe redemption has stories to tell  Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell  Where can you run to escape from yourself?  Where you gonna go?  Where you gonna go?  Salvation is here   I dare you to move  I dare you to move  I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor  I dare you to move  I dare you to move  Like today never happened  Today never happened  Today never happened  Today never happened before

while i'm waiting

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord






well, this says it all.

lost and insecure, you found me, you found me.

Created for a place
i've never known.
yeah this is home
now i'm finally where i belong
where i belong
yeah this is home
i've been searching for a place of my own
now i've found it
yeah this is home.

Here we are now with the falling sky and the rain,
We're awakening
Here we are now with our desperate youth and the pain,
We're awakening
Maybe it's called ambition, you've been talking in your sleep
About a dream, we're awakening

Last week found me living for nothing but deadlines,
With my dead beat sky but, this town doesn't look the same tonight
These dreams started singing to me out of nowhere
And in all my life I don't know that I ever felt so alive,
Alive

I want to wake up kicking and screaming
I want to wake up kicking and screaming
I want to know that my heart's still beating
It's beating,
I'm bleeding
I want to wake up kicking and screaming
I want to live like I know what I'm leaving
I want to know that my heart's still beating
It's beating... it's beating...
I'm bleeding


My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

everything to me

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WqqnUJmzcpM 

nice, soothing song.( listened to it only after i saw it in my friend's personal message on msn.

its been cheering me up when i feel down, especially in this period of time,

where i feel i'm the only one against my classmates in LRM.

thank God for my secondary school friends. i can count on them no matter what, 

they're really good and friendly people, i wish i took the same course as them,

instead of going to business school, where there are so many projects to do.

maybe it's just me, but i really think my classmates suck.

i'm all alone there, but at least i can get to sms my sec school friends, and when they reply, no matter what they say, that helps me alot, more then words can ever do to comfort me. 

i really thank God for such great friends, although i really feel like punching walls, pulling my hair out, screaming my lungs out, running nowhere as fast as i can.

i really hope God can pull me through at least one more semester,

cos next semester there will be a change of classes. i hope i get a good one then.

i remembered this song & i need God to help me to be like what the song is saying. 

I grew up in Sunday school, I memorized the Golden Rule

And how Jesus came to set the sinner free
I know the story inside out, and I can tell you all about the path that led Him up to Calvary
But ask me why He loves me, and I don't know what to say
But I'll never be the same because He changed my life when He became...

(CHORUS)
Everything to me (everything to me)
He's more than a story (more than a story)
More than words on a page of history
He is the air that I breathe (the air that I breathe), the water I thirst for (water I thirst for)
And the ground beneath my feet
Oh He's everything, everything to me

We're living in uncertain times
And more and more I find that I'm aware of just how fragile life can be
I wanna tell the world I've found, a love that turned my life around
They need to know that they can taste and see
Now everyday I'm prayin' (everday praying) just to give my heart away (give my heart away)
I wanna live for Jesus, so that someone else might see that He is...

Everything to me (everything to me)
He's more than a story (more than a story)
More than words on a page of history (the air that I breathe)
He's the air that I breathe (the air that I breathe), the water I thirst for (water I thirst for)
And the ground beneath my feet
Oh He's everything, (oh He's everything to me)

And lookin' back over my life at the end, (I'll go to meet You) I'll go to meet You, sayin You've been..

Everything to me
More than a story
More than words on a page of history

You're everything to me (everything to me)
You're more than a story (more than a story)
More than words on a page of history
You're the air that I breathe (the air that I breathe), the water I thirst for (water I thirst for)
And the ground beneath my feet
You're everything
Lord You're everything to me, Jesus

Everything, You're the water I thirst for
You're everything to me, Jesus, oh
Everything, You're the water I thirst for
The air I breathe, the song I sing, oh
Everything to me, everything to me
You're my life, my love, everything

The Call - Regina Specktor

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry

I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never 

Been this way before

All you can do is try to know 

Who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light

You'll come back 

When it's over
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back 

When it's over
No need to say goodbye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye 

This alabaster jar
Is all i have of worth
I break it at your feet, lord
It's less than you deserve
You're far more beautiful
More precious than the oil
The sum of my desires
And the fullness of my joy!


Prechorus:
Like you spilled your blood,
I spill my heart as an offering
To my king
Here i am, take me
As an offering
Here i am, giving every heartbeat
For your glory take me
The time that i have left
Is all i have of worth
I lay it at your feet, lord
It's less than you deserve
And though i've little strength
And though my days are few,
You gave your life for me
So, i will live my life for you

Worthy, worthy
You are worthy
Worthy is the lord 

my dream:

to lie down in green fields with the one of my dreams and just lie there and gaze at the sky,

day, and night,

holding hands with her.

the field of green is boundless as far as our eyes can see.

i will run through the fields with her and laugh with not a worry in the world.

that is my idea of heaven.

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance
along the light of day
And head back to the milky way
And tell me, did venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

As little children we would dream of Christmas morn
Of all the gifts and toys we knew we’d find
But we never realized a baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

*We were the reason that He gave His life
We were the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the years went by we learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves and what that means
On a dark and cloudy day a man hung crying in the rain
All because of love 
All because of love 

*Chorus

I finally found the reason for living
It’s in giving every part of my heart to Him (every part to Him)
And all that I do every word that I say (you know I’ll be saying)
I’ll be giving my all just for Him, for Him (every thing for Him)

We are the reason that He gave His life
We are the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give (all that he could give all)
To show us the reason to live

#He is the reason to live
(don’t you know do you know the reason
that he came, oh he came to save us
when he gave his life for us) he suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave everything (everything that He had He gave)
To show us the reason to live

*chorus + # together
Don’t know how I could thank Jesus all that he had all..
*chorus + # together

if it wasn't for us, he wouldn't have died.

Sometimes, we can preach our whole lives about You, but do we really know You?
Sometimes, we can sing our whole lives about You, but do we really know You?
Sometimes we can teach the children, how to live their lives for Jesus, but do we really know You?

Don't keep running away from the best thing that happened to you
Dont keep throwing away the greatest gift of all

all of your nonsense is sense to me

your truth i take for any that can be

there are so many tough and trial times that will never seemed to go over. But His goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life =DDDD

Learning to worship even in times of peace is harder compared to in time of a crisis yet God will always be there.

and then, there will always be some